Name : Lioxe
Music : "Porcelain Fists" - Ingrid Michaelson (Slow the Rain)
Mood :

It is time to share the truth.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder followed shortly by Moderate Depression. I have been undergoing therapy and am currently medicated. The difficulty with my form of OCD is in the punishments I inflict against myself, the punishments of un-creation.

In my own personal philosphy, creation, of any form is the most beautiful device. This is why I pursue the arts, I need a window, an opening into its mysterious flow. Creation, for the simple and pure purpose of creation is an elegant and perfect being. Perfection, however, is not something easily pursued, and when I feel the obsessions overcome my mind it is perfection that I hope to protect and retain. It is to this end that I frequently stop myself from doing any form of art. How damaging is it to the self? How destructive to remove capabality in the arts for the only reason that it might bring me joy. I do this to myself.

I keep trying to find an escape, trying to push through to the surface and breathe the clean air to which the rest of the world has grown accustomed. I am trying such an act now to breach the waves, but I can't promise that I'll reach my goal or even come high enough to catch a glimpse of it. I only wish that I can retain the community and friendships that I have lovingly found here.

I wish myself luck, though in necessity it becomes evermore fleeting.

Coming Soon :
1. (Wacom contest entry)
2. [Ryder-style] Outlines/Envelopes
3. FLORAL [life-nature]
4. floating on the.water - in a line
5. she emerges from the CRIMSON depths
6. FLOW-flux (concept)
7. The I S L A N D
8. Maria, the FRENCH (animation)
9. Snowboard Designs + Charas
10. Memories (graphic narrative)

Requests and Commissions : (accepting)
Prior requests are in the works.